My mother never told me....

My family moved all over the world when my dad was in the military, Massachusettes, New Hampshire, Dad was in Korea, then the whole family went to France, Dad was flying all over Europe and the last AF base was Mobile, Alabama. Mum took us to New Hampshire when she left Dad and when they reconciled we ended up in Toronto, Canada and finally in Salamanca,N.Y. When I got out of high school I was still traveling. I did a tour of eastern Canada and ended up in Toronto. I talked to my mom on the phone a lot till I was so homesick and depressed I returned to Salamanca.

Mum never told me how much it hurt to see me go. It never occured to me that it hurt her till I am faced with my daughter moving away from me.

My mother gave Howard a poem to encourage him when I went to Florida.

If you love something,

Set it free.

If it comes back,

It is your's.

I framed it and it hangs in my house to remind me of that time in my life.

There have been a few times in my life that I have missed my mother to talk to and this is one of them.

Back from Lyme Hell

You may wonder where this blogger has been since October. I have been to Lyme Disease Hell with a tick bite I got some time in July 2010 and I am just recovering enough to say I have my life back.

God got me through a difficult time, the most difficult time in my life that I have known so far. There were days that only prayer could get me through, looking out the kitchen window, watching the birds at the feeder, reminding myself that God cares for the birds, that He would care for me. I was lost to myself. I never want to go there again.

I do know that it could have been worse, that I can relate to people that I could not understand before. I have a better understanding and I will not soon forget.

It was a horrible winter and spring for many people. I knew of three suicides, one personally, who I had tried to help over the years and two who's families I know. I also had a close friend attempt suicide and ended up in the hospital.

God is merciful to me.